Things might be turning around
i say this in fear because i find that sometimes when i think that things are turning around there is yet another thing that gets in my way. however, i will hope that it will turn around anyway. hope is a great thing, maybe the best thing. hope is not a dangerous thing, something that will harm you but might get you through the hard times. hope might allow you to repair old friendships, hoping that things will turn around, that people will forgive, that people will be more caring and compassionate. that is what hope is, and it can save many things. i hope that everyone in my life lives a good one. i hope that i will live a good life full of happiness. i hope that when things go bad, as they sometimes do, my support system will be there beside me to get me through. i hope for the best for everyone. hopes are different than wishes because wishes are more magical than anything. with hopes there is more of an element of 'maybe' or 'eventually' but with wishes, they are abrupt and immediate things. at least that is how i would describe it.
i hope that things are turning around with the people around me and in their lives. i hope that everyone is happy. i hope that i touched my friends in such a way that when they think of me they willl remember something that i did that was special to them. that it will be something aside from making them laugh. although that is something that is nice, and makes people feel good, but something that makes them feel something. something i did to make them feel sheer happiness or some other emotion. i remember many conversations that i have had with my friends. many serious ones. i remember having a great conversation with shelley one night ( in particular though) when we were discussing love,a nd trying to define it. you remember that shelley?
i think that the world would be a dark place without friends. i am fortunate to have lived my life so far with friends in my life. i wonder what people feel like who have no friends. i imagine it being a dark place. i wouldn't wish that on anyone, but i hope that those people will meet someone and become friends with them. i hope that i meet someone someday who has no friends and welcome them into my life. i want to help people. i think that is the reason i want to become a psychologist or something related to that so i can help people. if i could work at a children's camp all year round i would in a second.
"shoot for the moon, because even if you miss you'll land among the stars"
