CONTEMPLATION
Everyone has times in their lives where they are unsure about something. It could be trivial such as what kind of ice cream to have or what movie to rent, or it could be more serious like what career to choose, saying your sorry when you do not want to, or wanting to be with someone forever. The serious questions are the ones that are the hardest. Who is there to tell us with absolute certainty that we are making the right decisions? How do we know that we are making the right choice? The answer is that we do not. We do not know what is the right committment to make. But if you knew what was the right decision would you enjoy life? I know that I would not enjoy life if the answers were right there in front of me if I wanted them to be. The book if life ought not have an answer key at the end of it. There in lies a mystery in life, and an anticipation that is a part of the greatness of existence. I am lucky in that I do not regret what I have done or what I have said in the last two and some odd years. Well, anything that I did regret I apologized for so does that count as having no regrets if reconciliation occurred? Yeah, I think so. I do not regret any decisions that I have made because I am happy with my life right now. I look forward to the journey ahead with full of happiness, disappointments, and surprises when I least expect them. I guess what I am trying to say that I am not afraid of the unknown. All I know is that I am delighted with what I have, and know that I always will, and that is not something that I am scared of, instead it is something that excites me about my life. Sorry for wasting everyones time with my thoughts. I just wanted to share them with you.
